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For anyone who even reads this anymore
Sep. 23rd, 2009 | 07:52 am
So I have some news. And you can read about it on my NEW blog!
www.babybekk.blog.com
As if the title doesn't give it away :)
www.babybekk.blog.com
As if the title doesn't give it away :)
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life...in a rush
Mar. 31st, 2009 | 07:35 pm
I got to the gym...and i forgot my ipod!! dangit... I have no idea how I did it, but i managed to work out an hour on the eliptical anyway! seriously...i'm really impressed with myself right now, cuz good music is the only thing that keeps me going doing this stuff!!
I lost a pound!!! i can't believe it... since saturday. just from exercising and drinking lots of water... i have a feeling i gained it right back since we had free pizza at work today... just can't turn down a free lunch!!
Right now on my list of "todo" is finish laundry, and start working on cleaning up the house for our bash in celebration of husbands birthday... we picked up the poker table last night, and vaccuum, dusting and picking up is in complete order... so tonight its cleaning both bathrooms until they shine like gold! I'll worry about the rest on thursday.
Tomorrow is going to meijer to pick up party supplies for the chocolate fountain we have, etc. and thursday is an all out-cleaning up the place day...
oh yah..when am i supposed to pack for our trip??? HA!!!!! my life will slow down the minute we leave for the south! Sarah and I have most of the plan set, but still have little details like finding a hotel in tallahassee and mobile, AL.
ahhhhh...
I lost a pound!!! i can't believe it... since saturday. just from exercising and drinking lots of water... i have a feeling i gained it right back since we had free pizza at work today... just can't turn down a free lunch!!
Right now on my list of "todo" is finish laundry, and start working on cleaning up the house for our bash in celebration of husbands birthday... we picked up the poker table last night, and vaccuum, dusting and picking up is in complete order... so tonight its cleaning both bathrooms until they shine like gold! I'll worry about the rest on thursday.
Tomorrow is going to meijer to pick up party supplies for the chocolate fountain we have, etc. and thursday is an all out-cleaning up the place day...
oh yah..when am i supposed to pack for our trip??? HA!!!!! my life will slow down the minute we leave for the south! Sarah and I have most of the plan set, but still have little details like finding a hotel in tallahassee and mobile, AL.
ahhhhh...
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At least Lost is on tonight....
Mar. 25th, 2009 | 04:43 pm
I've been so flipping busy I haven't even had time to finish a journal entry! ARGH!
Previously....
Finally! in 4 months we finally have a cell bill that is not over our limit in texting! YAY!!!! boy does that feel good. HUGE difference,...especially since our car situation is the way it is. What a day! I'm exhausted from working out at LIfetime yesterday. I did 20 min on the eliptical, 20 on the treadmill and 20 LONG minutes on the stair climber. After 3 minutes I wanted to get off, but thought, NO you can do this! So I pushed myself and got it done! I was so motivated I went right to Whole Foods and bought tons of fruits and veggies. I decided to try out a small salad at the salad bar. I'm not sure if I should of as it seemed to not agree with my stomach. But low and behold, I managed to get 9 glasses of water in me throughout the day. Today...not as good. But still had a great day. I got home and was too tired to put groceries away even, and then went to bed at 9! Waking up at 6:05 was soooooooo hard tho. At least I'm not at sore as I thought I would be today!
Now today....
I'm going back to lifetime after work every day until spring break if I can help it. My body may have another story as Jodi tells me i'm going to be super sore on friday after doing total body conditioning today. I'm nervous as all get out to take this class tonight because I haven't had an intense work out since last fall and they use balls, rods, and everything in this an hour AND ten minute class! oh my gosh. It's a huge class too and I'm going to feel stupid if i have to leave ... i'm going to remember this time to do my inhaler and hoping that will help boost me up! ;)
OUr calendar is so jammed packed at work I forget how insanely busy it gets from now until the end... every single day there is something going on that has tons of people in and out and now i'm exhausted again! Only 8 more days until I don't have to run around anymore and sarah and I will be heading down to florida and new orleans! oh my gosh!! I can't wait. Beach days are in store, and I'm hoping for nice weather...i will take 70's hands down :) I think the week will fly by and I hope I can get through untnil june!
As if I don't have enough on my plate, I've been inspired to try to sign up for a rock climbing class, a photography class, and I can't believe it, but i found my bongo/congo class!!! oh my gosh.. my days will fill up and fly by but Im excited for all of these :). Yah, Ang is gonna be to September in no time flat and wondering what happen to spring/summer. I Love this time of year as I always get geared up for a new beginning, which spring entails & get so motivtated to craft, and exercise, and just livin' life. YAY!!
I still haven't had a second to start getting decorations for our big party next friday night.. i really want to turn the sunroom into the "dance floor" room and need to find some cool lights at target and disco globe for the occasion. It's gonna be fun and we have a ton of people coming! I can't wait!!!
Well i have 10 more minutes before I have to get going again. At least lost is on tonight so i Have an hour to myself before I hit the hay. I've been so tired after the gym, i've been going to bed at 9! yup...i'm old!!
Previously....
Finally! in 4 months we finally have a cell bill that is not over our limit in texting! YAY!!!! boy does that feel good. HUGE difference,...especially since our car situation is the way it is. What a day! I'm exhausted from working out at LIfetime yesterday. I did 20 min on the eliptical, 20 on the treadmill and 20 LONG minutes on the stair climber. After 3 minutes I wanted to get off, but thought, NO you can do this! So I pushed myself and got it done! I was so motivated I went right to Whole Foods and bought tons of fruits and veggies. I decided to try out a small salad at the salad bar. I'm not sure if I should of as it seemed to not agree with my stomach. But low and behold, I managed to get 9 glasses of water in me throughout the day. Today...not as good. But still had a great day. I got home and was too tired to put groceries away even, and then went to bed at 9! Waking up at 6:05 was soooooooo hard tho. At least I'm not at sore as I thought I would be today!
Now today....
I'm going back to lifetime after work every day until spring break if I can help it. My body may have another story as Jodi tells me i'm going to be super sore on friday after doing total body conditioning today. I'm nervous as all get out to take this class tonight because I haven't had an intense work out since last fall and they use balls, rods, and everything in this an hour AND ten minute class! oh my gosh. It's a huge class too and I'm going to feel stupid if i have to leave ... i'm going to remember this time to do my inhaler and hoping that will help boost me up! ;)
OUr calendar is so jammed packed at work I forget how insanely busy it gets from now until the end... every single day there is something going on that has tons of people in and out and now i'm exhausted again! Only 8 more days until I don't have to run around anymore and sarah and I will be heading down to florida and new orleans! oh my gosh!! I can't wait. Beach days are in store, and I'm hoping for nice weather...i will take 70's hands down :) I think the week will fly by and I hope I can get through untnil june!
As if I don't have enough on my plate, I've been inspired to try to sign up for a rock climbing class, a photography class, and I can't believe it, but i found my bongo/congo class!!! oh my gosh.. my days will fill up and fly by but Im excited for all of these :). Yah, Ang is gonna be to September in no time flat and wondering what happen to spring/summer. I Love this time of year as I always get geared up for a new beginning, which spring entails & get so motivtated to craft, and exercise, and just livin' life. YAY!!
I still haven't had a second to start getting decorations for our big party next friday night.. i really want to turn the sunroom into the "dance floor" room and need to find some cool lights at target and disco globe for the occasion. It's gonna be fun and we have a ton of people coming! I can't wait!!!
Well i have 10 more minutes before I have to get going again. At least lost is on tonight so i Have an hour to myself before I hit the hay. I've been so tired after the gym, i've been going to bed at 9! yup...i'm old!!
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sunroom again
Mar. 17th, 2009 | 06:49 pm
I think this is my favorite room of the house. Especially when you can smell spring in the air and the sun is not quiet setting yet, but isn't right in your face either. It's hard to think the rest of the week's forcast is filled with t-storms tomorrow and cold the rest of the week :(. 50's just doens't cut it....high 60's..thats a different story.
Husband and i have been grilling this week which has been amazing. I went to meijer and bought already cut bowl of fruit and sucked it down. Body is craving that again which is awesome. It's Tuesday and I haven' theard from my Mom yet. It's funny how things just happen going from talking to her 3 x's a day..... to once a day...but now... maybe three times a week. She's so busy taking care of my grandparents all the time that she never calls me anymore. I'ts kinda a good thing cuz all it does is stress me out. And I can't ever tell her about my good days at work or anything cuz she just expects a bitch session everytime she calls about her life. *sigh* I have no idea if that will ever change really.
I really want to get this ipod thing of mine back into gear again. I'm looking at our endless wall of CD's and need to get some tunes cranking for the springtime vibe. Boy I can't wait until June 19th when I'm free....free to wake up whenever I want...have a cup of coffee on the porch, walk to Borders and stare at all the books, or just take a bike ride around the neighborhood for some exercise. I'm so geared up today its amazing.
I can't wait for weekends to just go for a drive again. This winter took a lot of of everyone with the constant blow zero temps and we are all just hungry for warm weather--the kids at school included. This year has been such an interesting year at work for me. I'm sinking into the thought of motherhood so much more so than I ever have before. I feel more like a "mom" mode and have had so many parents ask me if I had kids. I'm in the groove of discipline this year which I was a pushover last year...and really have found my knack on talking to kids to get them to open up. It's fun and yet I feel like my work evolves me and I can't wait to break away from that and get moving to try other things.
Talking with Jessica over email about cameras has made me feel like I really love to try out a photography class. My camera sucks, but it'd be nice to know how to work it and take some awesome pics like she does. That might end up being a creative outlet hobby for me.. so we'll see. I'll browse through the catalogs of parks and rec and see what there is this year. I am DYING to take a bongo class this year, and last year couldn't because we were gone in new zealand. i'm worried it is not offered because it hasn't been listed since. ...it was only a three week class in july and spanned over the weekend. so we'll see!!! I definately want to learn to grill more food!!! ahhh...inspiration. It's a new day, and time for some positivit!y!!!!
Husband and i have been grilling this week which has been amazing. I went to meijer and bought already cut bowl of fruit and sucked it down. Body is craving that again which is awesome. It's Tuesday and I haven' theard from my Mom yet. It's funny how things just happen going from talking to her 3 x's a day..... to once a day...but now... maybe three times a week. She's so busy taking care of my grandparents all the time that she never calls me anymore. I'ts kinda a good thing cuz all it does is stress me out. And I can't ever tell her about my good days at work or anything cuz she just expects a bitch session everytime she calls about her life. *sigh* I have no idea if that will ever change really.
I really want to get this ipod thing of mine back into gear again. I'm looking at our endless wall of CD's and need to get some tunes cranking for the springtime vibe. Boy I can't wait until June 19th when I'm free....free to wake up whenever I want...have a cup of coffee on the porch, walk to Borders and stare at all the books, or just take a bike ride around the neighborhood for some exercise. I'm so geared up today its amazing.
I can't wait for weekends to just go for a drive again. This winter took a lot of of everyone with the constant blow zero temps and we are all just hungry for warm weather--the kids at school included. This year has been such an interesting year at work for me. I'm sinking into the thought of motherhood so much more so than I ever have before. I feel more like a "mom" mode and have had so many parents ask me if I had kids. I'm in the groove of discipline this year which I was a pushover last year...and really have found my knack on talking to kids to get them to open up. It's fun and yet I feel like my work evolves me and I can't wait to break away from that and get moving to try other things.
Talking with Jessica over email about cameras has made me feel like I really love to try out a photography class. My camera sucks, but it'd be nice to know how to work it and take some awesome pics like she does. That might end up being a creative outlet hobby for me.. so we'll see. I'll browse through the catalogs of parks and rec and see what there is this year. I am DYING to take a bongo class this year, and last year couldn't because we were gone in new zealand. i'm worried it is not offered because it hasn't been listed since. ...it was only a three week class in july and spanned over the weekend. so we'll see!!! I definately want to learn to grill more food!!! ahhh...inspiration. It's a new day, and time for some positivit!y!!!!
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favorite spot in the house
Mar. 16th, 2009 | 06:36 pm
I'm on the computer in the sunroom. It's glorious. We finally got rid of the couch that I acquired for free from an old roommate and was happy to give it to my college sister-in-law so she can enjoy the next years of it in her college days. The sunroom looks so much bigger without it in here. I'm sitting in an old chair of husbands that she will also get once we get it over to her. I really want to get a papa-zon (sp) chair for this room because I plan to spend a lot of time here once my job is up in june...and read a lot of books, sip some ice tea, and just relax. Also plan on doing this by the pool as well. I'll see how it goes :) last summer went by in a blink of an eye and i didn't enjoy either of these things before it was back to work!
WE are still not moving on a car right now which worries me. My mom won't let me drive around her trailblazer forever but i have to admit I don't like the big beast but today...i LOVED the sunroof. It's amazing when its my lunch hour and just driving 10 minutes away having the thing open is just soooo fantastic. Thank god spring is ALMOST here...altho I checked out the weather channel and next week is "snow showers" gosh i hope weather.com is just completely off. its' happened a lot before.
I have a little list of things i'd like to do but none of them are giving me inspiration to do them. Like update my ipod. This has been an ongoing project of mine that just takes up sooooo much of my time transferring files and then sending them over to the ipod. I wish it was just one fast step and not two...
Anyway, I really want to get going on walks again, we did this yesterday and roamed around the neighborhoods. I get this way every time we walk around houses. I start itching for having our own place...knowing we won't move again. It's just not in the cards to do this with places around here starting at 200,000 which is soooo much money yet. I don't care if they are $400000 thats still too much money. we need to figure out a car situation before we do anything more. But its the thought of just having a small yard, and a two car garage...and i want a dog SO bad...but our place just doesn' thave a yard to run around in. And everytime we'd have to let it out we are on the 2nd floor, so we'd have to go outside all the time as well. So here I am just dreaming and gazing at the sun at 6:45PM.
Tomorrow is st. patty's day and I'm happy I can wear my cute green outfit/skirt thing since it will be warm enough. It's what I was hoping for. i had such a frustrating weekend with finally finally finally getting girls together to go see one of my favorite bands right now and then finding out we missed them by 2 hours...it really bummed me out and worried that getting together again is going to be a little tough. We are all in such different places in our lives and being 31 is just an interesting journey.
Divorces, kids, singles, boyfriends, recent breakups of long years together. Husband and I are lucky that we may have differences, but we are generally in a good place while others around us are having such hardships. We all take different paths in life and it seems that we are all doing some journeys away. My late 20's consisted of Princess Parties which were us girls getting dressed up, buying some tiaras, painting the town red, and being silly with fun presents that we all got. a little Party to go box.
I'm finally realizing that these days are over. It kind of seems weird to have a Princess party in our 30's. I think there should be a new generation or adventure for our lives that is a little more adult, but still some fun. We started to try to plan another party and then with all of us in different places, different excuses, different complaints, it just won't happen. And then I think...but I can't imagine going to a bar with a tiara on anymore... not being 30, going in a 21 year old place. It just doesn't seem fun. I think I'd rather buy some great wine, go to a friends house and watch sex and the city, or play a board game. Does that mean I'm a nerd? or that i'm "no fun" anymore? I think its just who I've become now. Hanging up the tiaras, is a not "literal" but more of a becoming something else. Just so many thoughts running through my head. Going to the bar can still be fun every now and then, but feeling like i'm trying to be something else is not.
Hmph. Interesting thoughts right now and maybe I"ll read this tomorrow and wonder what I'm thinking. I wish I could get more people to go on adventures and not just sit at homd and watch TV. But its hard. and Money is the root of all evil. But if you do it right, nature is free, and camping is pretty darn cheap. If you do it right, and get enough interest, it can be a great adventure.
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sometimes I miss it.
Mar. 12th, 2009 | 07:54 pm
My mom was put on a diet. No bread (flour), no dairy, & no raw veggies. She has lost 20 pounds in 3 weeks and is only 5 pounds heavier than me. Whats awesome is that she has not had one bad migraide since this has happened....
I know that I read a lot about how a lot of "gluten" products and dairy can cause numerous amount of things, and so I'm going to slowly try this as well. NOt to mention losing those 8 pounds since October is really bugging me and since I can't get to the gym right now, I really need to watch what I'm eating.
So I'm 7 days free of dairy. I do want to have a small amount of it maybe once a week because dang, cheese is on everything! Nachos and Pizza are the big two, but those are so bad for you anyway its probably better this way. And when husband comes home and says he wants pizza, I don't want to dissappoint him forever.
I haven't honestly missed it. I ate a sandwhich without cheese, salad, etc. It's really not that bad. I've noticed that my stomach bloat is a bit less this week so far. So we'll see!
I have two more minutes until Survivor starts. I have a list a mile long of things to get done and got the iron and wash done and a ton of stuff filed away in the filling cabinet, so i'm lettin gmyself watch survivor and office since I got all this done before 8!! :)
I just wanted to dust the house, but just am not up to it right now.
Excited for the weekend. Not because I"m seeing dotdotdot again, but because I'm hanging out with Brienne and LIz this weekend. I haven't since my birthday and its overdue. I'm realizing that "group" invites are just not the way to go as we get older, than nobody wants to go. So I just invited the two of them and to my surprise, they are BOTH coming. It's a miracle!!
I know that I read a lot about how a lot of "gluten" products and dairy can cause numerous amount of things, and so I'm going to slowly try this as well. NOt to mention losing those 8 pounds since October is really bugging me and since I can't get to the gym right now, I really need to watch what I'm eating.
So I'm 7 days free of dairy. I do want to have a small amount of it maybe once a week because dang, cheese is on everything! Nachos and Pizza are the big two, but those are so bad for you anyway its probably better this way. And when husband comes home and says he wants pizza, I don't want to dissappoint him forever.
I haven't honestly missed it. I ate a sandwhich without cheese, salad, etc. It's really not that bad. I've noticed that my stomach bloat is a bit less this week so far. So we'll see!
I have two more minutes until Survivor starts. I have a list a mile long of things to get done and got the iron and wash done and a ton of stuff filed away in the filling cabinet, so i'm lettin gmyself watch survivor and office since I got all this done before 8!! :)
I just wanted to dust the house, but just am not up to it right now.
Excited for the weekend. Not because I"m seeing dotdotdot again, but because I'm hanging out with Brienne and LIz this weekend. I haven't since my birthday and its overdue. I'm realizing that "group" invites are just not the way to go as we get older, than nobody wants to go. So I just invited the two of them and to my surprise, they are BOTH coming. It's a miracle!!
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time change
Mar. 9th, 2009 | 07:39 am
I really hate the time change. It messed me up for all day yesterday and I couldn't fall asleep last night. I remember at least 2am which is even worse when oops, I forgot to set my alarm last night of course and woke up 30 minutes later than I normally do. So I am cofeeless today which reallly sucks cuz I just can't wake up!
I went to Saginaw for the weekend while husband is away and being in saginaw is just depressing. I went to Sullivans for dinner on Friday night and just overheard so many conversations of more places that are closing up, or just not doing well. The people in Saginaw are so much more down and out than Ann Arbor. It really is sad and the waitresses say that nobody is coming out to eat because people who work for GM are scared to spend any money. And Sullivans is definately not a expensive place to stop eating....but thats the way it goes!
Sunday my Uncle took a look at my car and can't believe the dealership even did anything to it. He said my back wheels are all bent up and can't believe I can actually drive the thing.... well..I can't. Sunday it was raining REALLY hard...and my car... was running really loud. There was a lot of small puddles on the road, but my brakes just about gave out and my uncle said "you are not driving this thing home".
So I have my Mom's car, she took my grandparents van, and now we have to sit down and figure out what we are going to do. We have to get a new car, there just isnt' another option at this point. What really makes me mad is that I feel like we just gave the dealership $600 to do nothing... :(. I was so bummed last night I didn't even eat dinner. Not to mention my mom is still sick after almost three weeks and now is getting tests run for colon cancer. :(
I just need something GOOD to happen. come on good kharma!!!
I went to Saginaw for the weekend while husband is away and being in saginaw is just depressing. I went to Sullivans for dinner on Friday night and just overheard so many conversations of more places that are closing up, or just not doing well. The people in Saginaw are so much more down and out than Ann Arbor. It really is sad and the waitresses say that nobody is coming out to eat because people who work for GM are scared to spend any money. And Sullivans is definately not a expensive place to stop eating....but thats the way it goes!
Sunday my Uncle took a look at my car and can't believe the dealership even did anything to it. He said my back wheels are all bent up and can't believe I can actually drive the thing.... well..I can't. Sunday it was raining REALLY hard...and my car... was running really loud. There was a lot of small puddles on the road, but my brakes just about gave out and my uncle said "you are not driving this thing home".
So I have my Mom's car, she took my grandparents van, and now we have to sit down and figure out what we are going to do. We have to get a new car, there just isnt' another option at this point. What really makes me mad is that I feel like we just gave the dealership $600 to do nothing... :(. I was so bummed last night I didn't even eat dinner. Not to mention my mom is still sick after almost three weeks and now is getting tests run for colon cancer. :(
I just need something GOOD to happen. come on good kharma!!!
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I just wanna go for a walk!!!
Mar. 3rd, 2009 | 05:27 pm
Really truly. It looks warm out, but its not. The grass is starting to get that spring is just around the corner look to it, but nope, not yet! We may get dumped on one more time by mother nature since it is michigan after all. But for me...I just wanna go for a walk! Thats all I ask. Saginaw has a FREE indoor track, ann arbor, yah right. Everything comes with a price. I just can't justify dropping $175 at a gym right now when I just ruined my car :(. so I wait. and wait I shall.
The kids are half day on thursday and have friday off. I have nothing to do at work, yet the boss says the office is "open" *sigh*. Whats awesome is that the teachers only have to be at school for THREE HOURS. But yet I have to sit there, and bring a book to read I shall and have nothing to do. Luckily I have to take husband to the airport so I will get in around 9...but having to sit there until 4 is going to s-u-c-k!!!
Last night husband and I used the rest of our Target gift cards (all from my work pretty much) and bought Mario Kart and Rock Band. I love the drums...of course husband does too...so when i get home at 4, I'm playing addicting games. It's amazing how fast an hour can go on this thing!! :)
Watching Biggest Loser... so now i must go. :)
The kids are half day on thursday and have friday off. I have nothing to do at work, yet the boss says the office is "open" *sigh*. Whats awesome is that the teachers only have to be at school for THREE HOURS. But yet I have to sit there, and bring a book to read I shall and have nothing to do. Luckily I have to take husband to the airport so I will get in around 9...but having to sit there until 4 is going to s-u-c-k!!!
Last night husband and I used the rest of our Target gift cards (all from my work pretty much) and bought Mario Kart and Rock Band. I love the drums...of course husband does too...so when i get home at 4, I'm playing addicting games. It's amazing how fast an hour can go on this thing!! :)
Watching Biggest Loser... so now i must go. :)
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professional dogs
Mar. 2nd, 2009 | 05:14 pm
Husband and I went to the purina dog show in detroit on saturday. I have never seen dog shows but on TV so this was a whole new world. There are so many cute dogs out there. My favorites where the white terrier's as well as the ever so famous from sex and the city, king charles puppies, and my all time fav: the maltese. The outside vendors were for people who pretty much already have dogs of their own with things to buy, and then you could walk by all the dogs while they are waiting to go to the ring and see them prep.. the poodles especially were so funny...the people were hair spraying their hair to get it to look just right.
My favorite portion was the terrier's racing. They had four places for the dogs to wait and then they would release a dog toy and the dogs would race after it...some of the dogs just sat there and freaked out while others were racing to the finish.
We were there about 4 hours and watched a ton of dogs. I can't believe how cool it is! We'd love to get a dog someday and really thing a pure breed dog is the way to go. The dogs that are not pure-breed you don't really know what you are getting into and since i've never owned a dog and husband only one, I think we need to not take our chances. Either way if I did get one, I'd be interested in learning how to show it. I just don't even know where to start on how to do that!!!
My favorite portion was the terrier's racing. They had four places for the dogs to wait and then they would release a dog toy and the dogs would race after it...some of the dogs just sat there and freaked out while others were racing to the finish.
We were there about 4 hours and watched a ton of dogs. I can't believe how cool it is! We'd love to get a dog someday and really thing a pure breed dog is the way to go. The dogs that are not pure-breed you don't really know what you are getting into and since i've never owned a dog and husband only one, I think we need to not take our chances. Either way if I did get one, I'd be interested in learning how to show it. I just don't even know where to start on how to do that!!!
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FRIDAY!!!!
Feb. 27th, 2009 | 08:02 am
The best part about Friday is Channel 4 News at 6:45, they always bring two pets from the Detroit Humane Society for adoption. Today they had two small adorable dogs. Which made me get more excited to go to the Dog Show at Cobo Center tomorrow in D-Town. They will have breeders from all over the place and dog shows going on. I think it's going to be a lot of fun.
I got my morning coffee from the cofee house and thanks go good ole' michigan its 52 degrees right now but will be 32 by the time I leave work today.
I got my morning coffee from the cofee house and thanks go good ole' michigan its 52 degrees right now but will be 32 by the time I leave work today.
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just upset
Feb. 26th, 2009 | 08:37 am
I drove my car to the chiropractor this morning and it was a sheet of black ice. I have to re-learn how it handles now because its so different. I have to turn the wheel a certain way to stop on ice, etc.
My car is "fixed" as much as it can be but I bent the frame up beyond repair. The dealership told me it will not ever be the same--its still driveable, just not fixable. I can tell.... It's like I have to learn to handle my car all over again. It's just not my car anymore. I notice when I accelerate there is this extra loud noise that comes along with it. It's like the wheels spinning and makes this groning noise... an extra vibration if you will in the accelerator and when I break. *sigh*.
I dont' even like to take it on the highway anymore. It just makes me sad. I literally don't want my car anymore. I hate driving it. I hate getting in it. It's a reminder of what happened every time I start to accelerate. I cried all the way to work because I am so frustrated with it.
It's starting to bring me down. I have errands to do after work and I dont' want to do them. I just drive home and not leave the house. I want spring to just be here and getting tired of the ice and snow.
My Mom is offering her car to drive which I might just start taking her up on. I just need something different and feel like my car has just told me "I'm old" for the first time. Husband says we're not ready to get a new car, so I'll just deal with what I've been dealt with and just walk more places once it gets warm.
I got into work today and realize that my favorite time of my job is saying hi to the kids. I have my "regulars" that say good morning and then go on their way. It's seriously the best thing I look forward too at 8:30 every day. Somehow it makes it all better.
My car is "fixed" as much as it can be but I bent the frame up beyond repair. The dealership told me it will not ever be the same--its still driveable, just not fixable. I can tell.... It's like I have to learn to handle my car all over again. It's just not my car anymore. I notice when I accelerate there is this extra loud noise that comes along with it. It's like the wheels spinning and makes this groning noise... an extra vibration if you will in the accelerator and when I break. *sigh*.
I dont' even like to take it on the highway anymore. It just makes me sad. I literally don't want my car anymore. I hate driving it. I hate getting in it. It's a reminder of what happened every time I start to accelerate. I cried all the way to work because I am so frustrated with it.
It's starting to bring me down. I have errands to do after work and I dont' want to do them. I just drive home and not leave the house. I want spring to just be here and getting tired of the ice and snow.
My Mom is offering her car to drive which I might just start taking her up on. I just need something different and feel like my car has just told me "I'm old" for the first time. Husband says we're not ready to get a new car, so I'll just deal with what I've been dealt with and just walk more places once it gets warm.
I got into work today and realize that my favorite time of my job is saying hi to the kids. I have my "regulars" that say good morning and then go on their way. It's seriously the best thing I look forward too at 8:30 every day. Somehow it makes it all better.
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blind as a bat
Feb. 24th, 2009 | 07:36 pm
I am. I"m a -12 in glasses which is very rare. I really do pray that my kids will not be burdened with my horrible eyesite. My Dads was pretty darn bad...but I passed him in 7th grade. He felt awful. I'm more than both my parents combined.
I don't ever remember waking up and seeing the alarm clock. It has always been blurry. I've had to memorize where things are in the shower and will never forget the time when I dropped the white soap in the shower and just couldn't find it. I started bawling. I think I was in my 20's at this point.
I don't think my mom ever got how blind I was until the eye dr. showed her once through some lenses. I have learned to memorize where things are in the house, and in my surroundings. Yup it sucks. Some times I just wish I could just sit there with my eyes and not have glasses or contacts on but it drives me absolutely nuts.. ....in the car when i'm a passenger.. i just can't do it. everything is so messed up i go bonkers.
I'm too far gone to qualify for lasik...but i also have an anti-lasik eye doctor. He claims that people who got surgery done 10 years ago are now having some serious problems with it. *sigh*. I understand...but man, they couldn't screw me up...anything has to be better than this!
I've also experienced terrifying things in the middle of the night when I wake up. My vision is so bad it looks like outlines of demons, and even people. I remember husband and I went camping last summer and I woke up in the middle of the night in terror. I honestly thought there there was a man hovering over our tent. Since then I sleep with my contacts in, but only one night. I can't do that any longer or my contacts get sucked to my eyeballs and it hurts like hell to tear them out.
With that i have finally remembered something i want to write about. I have no time during my day to journal as I"m interrupted at a constant rate and than forget what i'm going to say. By the time I get home I just want to crash and not look at the computer. But since I'm alone, and bored. I thought I'd write.
I can't wait for there to be sun in the sunroom.
I don't ever remember waking up and seeing the alarm clock. It has always been blurry. I've had to memorize where things are in the shower and will never forget the time when I dropped the white soap in the shower and just couldn't find it. I started bawling. I think I was in my 20's at this point.
I don't think my mom ever got how blind I was until the eye dr. showed her once through some lenses. I have learned to memorize where things are in the house, and in my surroundings. Yup it sucks. Some times I just wish I could just sit there with my eyes and not have glasses or contacts on but it drives me absolutely nuts.. ....in the car when i'm a passenger.. i just can't do it. everything is so messed up i go bonkers.
I'm too far gone to qualify for lasik...but i also have an anti-lasik eye doctor. He claims that people who got surgery done 10 years ago are now having some serious problems with it. *sigh*. I understand...but man, they couldn't screw me up...anything has to be better than this!
I've also experienced terrifying things in the middle of the night when I wake up. My vision is so bad it looks like outlines of demons, and even people. I remember husband and I went camping last summer and I woke up in the middle of the night in terror. I honestly thought there there was a man hovering over our tent. Since then I sleep with my contacts in, but only one night. I can't do that any longer or my contacts get sucked to my eyeballs and it hurts like hell to tear them out.
With that i have finally remembered something i want to write about. I have no time during my day to journal as I"m interrupted at a constant rate and than forget what i'm going to say. By the time I get home I just want to crash and not look at the computer. But since I'm alone, and bored. I thought I'd write.
I can't wait for there to be sun in the sunroom.
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I seriously thought I was going to die
Feb. 22nd, 2009 | 06:19 pm
I woke up Saturday morning to no snow. My friend Brienne told me that she was feeling better and was going to go to the baby shower with me for Katrina. I had a weird feeling about not going, but made it to the baby shower about 20 minutes late from all the snow coming down.
As I was leaving, I was driving slow. The roads didn't seem to bad right in Detroit but got a little slicker by the time I got near the airport. I was in the middle lane of the three lane highway and the cars were all in that lane...and kept slamming on their brakes all the time. I was going no more than 40 mph. I decided I was sick of the brake deal and went to get in the far right lane... all of sudden, it happened so fast, all i remember is the sound of slush, my car fish tailing around to face the oncoming traffic and then nose dive right into the ditch. What I remmeber the most is i kept saying "no no no" and I threw my left arm up against the door to brace myself as I hit a tree sideways. Seriously thinking to myself that I was going to die...this was it.
I couldn't get out because the tree was all around me. I was bawling, and called hustand and he couldn't understand me i was screaming so loud. Not one person stopped to see if i was OK. I honestly kept thinking if I was hurt, how long it would take for someone to see if I was ok. Husband convinced me to call 911 and go from there. I had no idea what to do as this was my first accident since I was 16.
I called 911 and they said someone had already called me in. It felt like long drowning minutes, but I think the police arrived 5 minutes after I crashed. I crawled through the passenger door and the police car opened the back door and said "Angie?". I couldn't believe it. It was my friend Chad, --one of the teachers husbands. Seriously, I feel like that was fate that he got the call. Being a Saginaw native himself, I was just realived to know someone. I started bawling as he called for a tow truck.
Minutes after I got in the car, someone on the West bound lane, did the same thing I did... no joke. Only he was in the median lane, not the ditch... but managed to control his car to be OK. I was right by the airpot and saw the exit sign for the airport.
I didn't get out to see the damage until awhile late, but i can't believe i have only a small dent in my drivers side door. My aunt and uncle live in dearborn and my uncle arrived as the tow truck guy got there. When th eguy put the chain to my car and started pulling--i ran over a tree....literally branches were sticking out of my tire. all over the place...the tree moved with the tire chain and the cop said I'm lucky to be alive...that I didn't hit oncoming traffic.
My car is so messed up.. It shakes when i drive it to about 55MPH.. I Looked underneath and see a pipe that is damaged...not sure what that is...
I"mj glad I"m OK... panicking about my car and how attached I am to it after 10 years of owning it. So I'm praying the damage is not that bad and fixable....because we are no where near being ready to buy a new car right now... :(
As I was leaving, I was driving slow. The roads didn't seem to bad right in Detroit but got a little slicker by the time I got near the airport. I was in the middle lane of the three lane highway and the cars were all in that lane...and kept slamming on their brakes all the time. I was going no more than 40 mph. I decided I was sick of the brake deal and went to get in the far right lane... all of sudden, it happened so fast, all i remember is the sound of slush, my car fish tailing around to face the oncoming traffic and then nose dive right into the ditch. What I remmeber the most is i kept saying "no no no" and I threw my left arm up against the door to brace myself as I hit a tree sideways. Seriously thinking to myself that I was going to die...this was it.
I couldn't get out because the tree was all around me. I was bawling, and called hustand and he couldn't understand me i was screaming so loud. Not one person stopped to see if i was OK. I honestly kept thinking if I was hurt, how long it would take for someone to see if I was ok. Husband convinced me to call 911 and go from there. I had no idea what to do as this was my first accident since I was 16.
I called 911 and they said someone had already called me in. It felt like long drowning minutes, but I think the police arrived 5 minutes after I crashed. I crawled through the passenger door and the police car opened the back door and said "Angie?". I couldn't believe it. It was my friend Chad, --one of the teachers husbands. Seriously, I feel like that was fate that he got the call. Being a Saginaw native himself, I was just realived to know someone. I started bawling as he called for a tow truck.
Minutes after I got in the car, someone on the West bound lane, did the same thing I did... no joke. Only he was in the median lane, not the ditch... but managed to control his car to be OK. I was right by the airpot and saw the exit sign for the airport.
I didn't get out to see the damage until awhile late, but i can't believe i have only a small dent in my drivers side door. My aunt and uncle live in dearborn and my uncle arrived as the tow truck guy got there. When th eguy put the chain to my car and started pulling--i ran over a tree....literally branches were sticking out of my tire. all over the place...the tree moved with the tire chain and the cop said I'm lucky to be alive...that I didn't hit oncoming traffic.
My car is so messed up.. It shakes when i drive it to about 55MPH.. I Looked underneath and see a pipe that is damaged...not sure what that is...
I"mj glad I"m OK... panicking about my car and how attached I am to it after 10 years of owning it. So I'm praying the damage is not that bad and fixable....because we are no where near being ready to buy a new car right now... :(
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tuning out
Feb. 20th, 2009 | 01:54 pm
Sometimes when my husband and I go out to dinner, he always notices the screaming baby or the loud kids. This is my life every day. Try hearing 125 of them all in the cafeteria. I've somehow to manage to block this noise out.
I've had parents come in the office and say "wow those kids are loud". I can't believe how much tuning out I really can be able to do. Well I am partially deaf these days anyway. but none the less!!!
I've had parents come in the office and say "wow those kids are loud". I can't believe how much tuning out I really can be able to do. Well I am partially deaf these days anyway. but none the less!!!
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Wednesday Morning Already
Feb. 18th, 2009 | 07:56 am
I get spoiled when I have a few days off of school. I dont' see a paycheck for those two days off, but it tends to make me wish summer would be here faster than normal. I guess I have spring break to look forward too which is still awhile away. I'll settle for warmer weather. Even the 50's felt like 70 when we had that one warm day.
I need to work out and haven't been able to afford to right now. The Wii Fit is great, but its not a "work out" that I need. I need a eliptical or a treadmill. This month was new glasses and another year of contacts which is a HUGE chunk of change right now and now sure how I'm going to get through the rest of the month. I *need* to go to the gym, not just for losing some extra pounds from winter, but because I feel better.
The one thing about Saginaw that I like is that they have the basketball courts that has the indoor track that you can walk around for FREE! I don't know of any place around here.. its ann arbor, everything costs money it seems.
Husband and I went on a trip this weekend and drove through Indiana, Illinois, Missouri and Iowa. We actually saw FOUR bald eagles. It was wonderful! I have never seen them out in the wild before. Being even a little further south with green trees and the feeling that spring is SO close makes me wish it was here sooner than later. But I'm sure we'll have another snow storm before good weather hits. I just want to go for a walk outside!
Well my day has begun with late kids and no concentration on this journal. By the time I get home I want nothing to do witha computer so my hopes of jounraling more often seem to dwindle. So I'll try for tomorrow....
I need to work out and haven't been able to afford to right now. The Wii Fit is great, but its not a "work out" that I need. I need a eliptical or a treadmill. This month was new glasses and another year of contacts which is a HUGE chunk of change right now and now sure how I'm going to get through the rest of the month. I *need* to go to the gym, not just for losing some extra pounds from winter, but because I feel better.
The one thing about Saginaw that I like is that they have the basketball courts that has the indoor track that you can walk around for FREE! I don't know of any place around here.. its ann arbor, everything costs money it seems.
Husband and I went on a trip this weekend and drove through Indiana, Illinois, Missouri and Iowa. We actually saw FOUR bald eagles. It was wonderful! I have never seen them out in the wild before. Being even a little further south with green trees and the feeling that spring is SO close makes me wish it was here sooner than later. But I'm sure we'll have another snow storm before good weather hits. I just want to go for a walk outside!
Well my day has begun with late kids and no concentration on this journal. By the time I get home I want nothing to do witha computer so my hopes of jounraling more often seem to dwindle. So I'll try for tomorrow....
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cats
Feb. 10th, 2009 | 11:06 am
I was cleaning out the closet and found a cross-stitch project that I had abondened years ago. It's a bow. You cross-stitch the bow that says "In this house the cat rules" Its really cute, but a little tricky because you can't put a clamp around it to keep it in place while you stitch. The colors are all so similar its hard to tell which color is which, but I finally got them sorted and what color they are is what they are. I don't think its going to take me THAT long as the cats on it are pretty clean.. I really need to learn how to french knot as this project has several again.... (I'm just not that good at it)
It's keeping me occupied anyway on a good project while its still winter... and hopefully if i persist, I can get this done in a month!
yay!
It's keeping me occupied anyway on a good project while its still winter... and hopefully if i persist, I can get this done in a month!
yay!
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Lost in a "thing"
Feb. 5th, 2009 | 08:16 pm
My friend Sarah introduced me to her world of podcasts. I had no idea that she was involved with something so great and creative. She does an Office Podcast on itunes and her and two other ppl (from different states) watch The Office, than do about an hour long show of a podcast. They have like 1,000 or more subscribers.
My husband is all about having your own 'thing" that you like to do. His is hiking and drumming. As well as a many others, but two main ones. I do believe that we each have to have our own interests in life, as one should not become each others "happiness." as i have learned this through the loss of my father. My Mom is virtually friendless, hobbiless and doesn't read books or have any interests.. my Dad was it for her. It's just not healthy.
There are so many times when I just get bummed because I don't feel like I have a "thing" that I"m into. Sure I cross-stitch, but after one project, I set that down for a long long time til I get it in me to work on it. I read....but I'm not the type that would want to discuss what I"ve read to a group or something. I just don't feel like I'm an analyst when it comes to reading.
I do like to work out. but to spend $200 at the gym just isn't in the books right now. So virtually, it feels kinda weird not knowing what it is that I'm "good at" or really "into". I've never really collected anything in my past and have no interest in returning to the piano. Thats just not who I am anymore. But who am I really? What makes me me? Does anyone know where to start on trying to find out who you are or what your interests are? Is this something only a few people really discover?
So here I sit. Still agonizing and scratching my head at what is it that I'd like to do. I like to travel, and luckily have one travel partner in my life as most of my friends have become so much in debt they are chained to their houses. But travel doens't "define me". I had more of "Me" at 16 than at 21 or even at the present. I almost start to become resentful of people who have such a creative outlook because I have yet to of mastered mine....and worry that I never will figure out what truly makes me "happy".
My husband is all about having your own 'thing" that you like to do. His is hiking and drumming. As well as a many others, but two main ones. I do believe that we each have to have our own interests in life, as one should not become each others "happiness." as i have learned this through the loss of my father. My Mom is virtually friendless, hobbiless and doesn't read books or have any interests.. my Dad was it for her. It's just not healthy.
There are so many times when I just get bummed because I don't feel like I have a "thing" that I"m into. Sure I cross-stitch, but after one project, I set that down for a long long time til I get it in me to work on it. I read....but I'm not the type that would want to discuss what I"ve read to a group or something. I just don't feel like I'm an analyst when it comes to reading.
I do like to work out. but to spend $200 at the gym just isn't in the books right now. So virtually, it feels kinda weird not knowing what it is that I'm "good at" or really "into". I've never really collected anything in my past and have no interest in returning to the piano. Thats just not who I am anymore. But who am I really? What makes me me? Does anyone know where to start on trying to find out who you are or what your interests are? Is this something only a few people really discover?
So here I sit. Still agonizing and scratching my head at what is it that I'd like to do. I like to travel, and luckily have one travel partner in my life as most of my friends have become so much in debt they are chained to their houses. But travel doens't "define me". I had more of "Me" at 16 than at 21 or even at the present. I almost start to become resentful of people who have such a creative outlook because I have yet to of mastered mine....and worry that I never will figure out what truly makes me "happy".
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cold
Feb. 5th, 2009 | 09:57 am
its cold in the office. yesterday a guy came over to confirm --yup its 45 degrees in here.. but left and did nothing about it.
it feels colder today as i'm literally typing with a full set of gloves on.
it feels colder today as i'm literally typing with a full set of gloves on.
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Scarce
Feb. 4th, 2009 | 11:33 am
I honestly haven't been feeling the effects of the recession/"depression. I'm thankful I have a job, and a roof on my head and have never been one of those people to overspend. And when I do, I panic. And this is from being in debt for less than $1,000. I have to say in the last week, this is not the case. I got a notice from my insurance that my copays have gone up to $40 for office visits and $150 for ER visits and went from 100% coverage after $500 deductible to 80%. Do I even have health insurance?? I asked the chiropractor what office visits are and she said $42.00 a visit. Wow. Don't hold back on that $2.00!! My prescription copays are $60.00. So basically I get nothing covered. I can't jump on husbands insurance until November....
Ok. I can handle the insurance change and deal with it. At least I have an income. I have a friend that just got laid off from a 12 year job at a bank, my Mom's restaurant is in the midst of being sold and her job is up in the air. So many parents this week have lost their jobs from Panasonic and even a teaching job in Dundee. It's all seem to be coming unglued right now.
After looking in the paper for my Mom for jobs, (which i feel like she is doomed if she doesn't try to improve her skills) I noticed that Consumers Energy was hiring--but it was too late. The posting was only open 48 hours. Wow. In the Saginaw area, I can't imagine how many hundreds of apps that they got considering the job market in Saginaw is far worse than where I'm at further south.
I wish my Mom had more umph in her to take a typing/computer class so she can get some basic knowledge down. Because with only restaurant management she is going to find much for a 53 year old with only h.s. and no college. I caught the end of Govenor Granholm's Adress last night that talked about no worker left behind act. I think my mom could possibly qualify but she's just too darn stubborn to do anything about her work experience. UGH!
I also happen to catch Oprah yesterday talking about saving money by unplugging all of your things in your house to reduce the electric bill, etc. I feel like we are tightening our belts more in America but man..i just can't believe how many people have told me that I should be buying a new car or a new house these days....umm..to get into more debt i can't pay for?? I don't think so...and i don't mind renting..if something breaks down in the house, its not my problem :)
Ok. I can handle the insurance change and deal with it. At least I have an income. I have a friend that just got laid off from a 12 year job at a bank, my Mom's restaurant is in the midst of being sold and her job is up in the air. So many parents this week have lost their jobs from Panasonic and even a teaching job in Dundee. It's all seem to be coming unglued right now.
After looking in the paper for my Mom for jobs, (which i feel like she is doomed if she doesn't try to improve her skills) I noticed that Consumers Energy was hiring--but it was too late. The posting was only open 48 hours. Wow. In the Saginaw area, I can't imagine how many hundreds of apps that they got considering the job market in Saginaw is far worse than where I'm at further south.
I wish my Mom had more umph in her to take a typing/computer class so she can get some basic knowledge down. Because with only restaurant management she is going to find much for a 53 year old with only h.s. and no college. I caught the end of Govenor Granholm's Adress last night that talked about no worker left behind act. I think my mom could possibly qualify but she's just too darn stubborn to do anything about her work experience. UGH!
I also happen to catch Oprah yesterday talking about saving money by unplugging all of your things in your house to reduce the electric bill, etc. I feel like we are tightening our belts more in America but man..i just can't believe how many people have told me that I should be buying a new car or a new house these days....umm..to get into more debt i can't pay for?? I don't think so...and i don't mind renting..if something breaks down in the house, its not my problem :)
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Sinus AGAIN
Feb. 3rd, 2009 | 07:38 am
Ever since I can remember I've always got a sinus infection twice a year. Spring and late Fall. In the last 10 years, it could vary to up to three times a year. In the last 3 years. Non stop. I've got sinus crap every other month.
My Dad had horrible allergies and someone suggested I get tested to see if I had them. Sure enough, after they prick your back a million times, my entire back was red and itchy from mold. Indoor and Outdoor., dust mites, & certain dogs. Well at least at this point, I knew what was going on. In the summer of 07, I had a sinus infection for FOUR months. and suspected that there was mold in the basement I was living.
When I first got my shots every week, it seemed like I was a new person. I felt better. I didn't even get sick from Nov. 07 - May 08. Seriously thats a world record for me. I thought that moving out of our awful apartment would fix this, but it seems as if that was a distant dream. September, November and now this week, I have the nasty sinus congestion. Last night I woke up at 4 and couldn't breathe and fell asleep just as my alarm was going off. I'm at work, because when I don't go to work, my assistant does not get a lunch and buy herself all day. So I'm going to try to make it until 1pm to go home and get some chicken noodle soup and rest. Here's hoping..
My Dad had horrible allergies and someone suggested I get tested to see if I had them. Sure enough, after they prick your back a million times, my entire back was red and itchy from mold. Indoor and Outdoor., dust mites, & certain dogs. Well at least at this point, I knew what was going on. In the summer of 07, I had a sinus infection for FOUR months. and suspected that there was mold in the basement I was living.
When I first got my shots every week, it seemed like I was a new person. I felt better. I didn't even get sick from Nov. 07 - May 08. Seriously thats a world record for me. I thought that moving out of our awful apartment would fix this, but it seems as if that was a distant dream. September, November and now this week, I have the nasty sinus congestion. Last night I woke up at 4 and couldn't breathe and fell asleep just as my alarm was going off. I'm at work, because when I don't go to work, my assistant does not get a lunch and buy herself all day. So I'm going to try to make it until 1pm to go home and get some chicken noodle soup and rest. Here's hoping..